Purple Treatment
-Messages from my Dad-
My figures represent the stories of my life. Wherever I went, there were memories and teachings which I collected. Everything I experienced and felt, became my art. I can in-fact say I live and make stories to create my figures. In the last two years, I have not carved any artistic piece in my studio. I am a person who lives without dreams and from day to day only, to satisfy my hunger. I am still in the middle of my wanderings and waiting for the time when I will achieve my dream life. And, I am still emotionally weak. But the one thing which re-charged my life is my father’s emails sent over eighty- five days. These were messages for keeping me alive. In his emails, he typed an entire book “Blessing of the Rainbow,” the Korean bestseller book by priest Cha Dong-Yeop. It is a life-teaching book. My father is not good at typing. So I can imagine the number of hours he spent in front of his computer for giving me the message- that he is still trying to do something new and never gives up even at his age. The book was great, but my father’s eighty- five emails are the biggest teaching of my life. They rescued me from a desperate situation. Before the emails, my life had to rely on small purple pills, but now messages from my dad are the most powerful treatment for me. They gave me another chance to create my clowns. My clowns have a fear of the flying trapeze, because they already know the gravity as depicted in the Japanese novel “Gravity Clown” by Isaka Koraro.
I would like to share with you few lines I have written on my life-
Life for my Art!
There are things, which I desire to do, but I can’t do yet.
There are things, which I can do better than what I am doing now, but I haven’t had chances to do yet.
There are things which I choose for my happiness, but because of my choice, someone is crying every day and every night in other parts of the world.
There are things, which I gain for my future goals, but I also have to give up seeing my own blood.
I exchanged everything that I had for thirty three years of my life, such as my family, friends and memories of my country, for my desire of a career as an artist and being the life partner of that someone very special I met once.
Like the Gravity Clown, I know there is gravity and I can fall from the flying trapeze. But I will try to forget about the gravity in order to bring alive my best performance in building and carving clay figures.
“If you live with happiness, you won’t feel gravity.”
